Hello I’m Fèngxiān 院 凤仙.

I’m 26 years old I graduated from Portland State University in the Spring of 2020 with my Certificate of Career And Community Studies. I was adopted in 1997 at the age of 20 months from Nanning, China in the Guangxi Province. I grew up in Denver, Colorado with my adoptive parents and my two non biological adoptive sisters who are also adopted from China.

Growing up, my adoptive parents made sure my sisters and I were connected to our Chinese heritage. They took us to Chinatown, Chinese language school. We celebrated Chinese New Year and our gotcha/adoption day. We as a family attended Chinese Heritage Camp in Denver, Colorado and as well in Portland, Oregon.

I went back to China in 1999 and 2003 with my adoptive parents to adopt my two younger sisters.

My family and I moved to Portland, Oregon in the summer of 2006 and I attended Portland Public Schools in Southwest Portland. 

In the summer of 2019, I went back on a Heritage Tour through CCAI (Chinese Children Adoption International) to China with my adoptive mom. I got to travel back and see where I come from. I got to visit my hometown and go to my orphanage where I spent the 1st few days of my life.

I’m living independently with a roommate in Sellwood, Oregon. I enjoy independent living I keep up with the cleaning and make sure the place is neat. 

Currently I’m working part time at Safeway as a courtesy clerk in Portland. I enjoy my job and seeing my co- workers and organizing the mark down basket. 

What I like to do in my free time is do activities with my provider, and spend time with my family and friends. I enjoy cake decorating and spending time with my friend Lillie. 

After my trip to China in 2019, I wanted to learn more about my biological parents and my earlier parts of my life. I did a DNA test with 23andme, my lapcorp. I have cousins of 4th and 5th generations on 23mofang. And I’m also in GEDMATCH. 

In the summer of 2022, I competed at the 2022 Special Olympics USA Games in Orlando, Florida. I represented the state of Oregon in the sport of swimming. I won a silver medal in the 25 freestyle and I also won two 4th place ribbons in the 25 backstroke and the 4 x 25 freestyle relay final. I represented the state of Oregon! Read more here.


By Lucy Balthazaar, with Lydia Fisher, Lucy’s Freshman Inquiry Instructor, and Grace Piper, Lucy’s Freshman Inquiry Student Mentor

Click here to download the full Think College Story from the September 2018 Issue of THINK COLLEGE STORIES

I was born in the year of the fire rat. I was born in the Zhuang Autonomous region in Guangxi, China, Nanning City. When I was a few days old my birth parents weren’t able to keep me anymore. My birth parents laid me gently down on the concrete pavement. They said their last goodbyes, they got up quietly like bunnies and crept into the evening under the full moon. I soothed myself and kept myself warm in my blanket.

The next morning, I was found by a nice kind-hearted person who took me to the Nanning Social Welfare Institute in Guangxi, China where I waited for my forever family. When first I arrived I was assigned to a crib and a crib mate. My crib mate and I would soothe each other when we cried. We heard each other’s cries. We had to be strong for each other. Until the day we had a family to call our own. At 20 months my parents adopted me because they wanted to adopt a Chinese baby girl–that was me. They wanted to share their experiences with me and teach me things.

My parents gave me and my sisters opportunities to connect with our Chinese culture in various ways. We went as a family to this Chinese Heritage Camp and Chinese language school in Denver, CO. My family and I also went to a Chinese Heritage Camp in Portland, OR. Both Chinese Heritage Camps had cultural workshops, gift shop, cooking, arts and crafts, resources and adoption workshops for the campers and families to take part in together. I enjoyed being surrounded by other Chinese adoptees who looked like me. I felt complete and happy hearing their “red thread” stories and going through similar experiences as me.

How my Chinese culture shaped me to the person who I am today: it is who I am as a person and the genes that my birth parents gave to me. For example, my double eyelids, beautiful lips, my tan skin and my thick dark black hair. It’s how I express myself through my Chinese dance and my ceramics and mostly my writing. I enjoy sharing my Chinese culture with other people and most of all sharing my red thread journey.

I like to learn, I always wanted to go to college. I always had a dream of going to college after high school. I took a placement test at PCC Sylvania and I looked at the class schedule. The ones I wanted to take, the times were unavailable. And then last year I went to the TCIO (Think College Inclusion Oregon) information night and I thought about it and I applied and got in.

 I thought it over and I eventually wanted to go to college and fulfill my dream. To get into TCIO I had to write a personal statement about why I wanted to go to college and how I would help myself. During my 1st year in TCIO I had a busy schedule. I was still in the Community Transition Program for students with a modified diploma in high school, and I was working and going to college part time. And on top of that academic coaching and academic advising and seminars once a month. My first class was called Health, Happiness, and Human Rights and I learned a lot of stuff. The class changed my thinking about how people view health and happiness and how we see human rights–how other people see it. Human rights should be for everyone, not just one person. We all have rights, that is what it says in the constitution and we should all be happy.

Some of the work for the class that I was most proud of was going to the Portland Art Museum and doing a creative project and performing my Chinese dance for the class – that was fun.

When we went to the museum we looked at a painting about Indian boarding schools and how children were treated in those boarding schools—they couldn’t practice their traditions. It is like when you take someone’s culture away, it affects their health and happiness but mainly their human rights. I liked studying different cultures. I like comparing that thinking to my own Chinese dance. I thought about how the Native Americans’ culture is just as important to them as my Chinese dance is important to me, so I did a dance for the class to represent what I learned from that painting. I learnt from this assignment that other people who are different from me have a life too but probably they have a different life than me. They are just a person like me, nothing less.

The course was about our responsibilities to the world and made me think of the stuff going on in the news like the lives of the people in different countries from ours. Like the conflict in Syria and the Middle East made me think something about them. How war affects health and happiness and human rights.

I would tell new students starting in the Think College program that TCIO changed my life in a positive way. I always wanted to go to college and meet new people. Having an academic coach helps you a lot. They are always with you and want you to be successful. They are always standing by you. And take advantage of the clubs and the classes at the Rec Center, too. My student mentor for my Freshman Inquiry course, Grace, always told us take care of your pals and do self-care. It is fun and TCIO changed my life. Just enjoy it. You will be proud when you complete it.

So, when I imagine myself, finished with my certificate I will be very proud. I have my life after college all planned. After TCIO, I graduate in June 2020 and I will go to PCC and get my 1 year Certificate. I want to become a paraeducator and work with a Life Skills classroom, maybe with Portland Public Schools. And then, maybe, I want to live on my own and have a dog and travel to China and volunteer at my orphanage in China and take care of the kids. I would go over there for the summer and do volunteer work. I will take care of the kids at my orphanage, maybe paint the room and just give them love. They might know what love is but not how I do with a family and having friends. That is my dream.

I am saving money for this dream. I have been saving lots of money from my work and I have a dreams map. And I have my goals, my life goals for 5 years from now. So now I can refer to that. So that is my plans after college. And then travel, like my mom and dad did before they adopted me. Travel to a lot of different places. See different places. Taste different foods. Awesome.


Author Information:
LUCY BALTHAZAAR is currently in her 3rd year of Portland State University’s Think College Inclusion Oregon-Career and Community Studies program (TCIO-CCS), and she works as support staff at Helen Gordon Child Development Center, the on-campus child care center on Portland State Campus.

LYDIA FISHER Is an instructor in the Portland State University Studies program, and she has taught TCIO-CCS students in her Freshman Inquiry classes since the program first enrolled students in the Fall of 2016.

GRACE PIPER was the undergraduate peer mentor for Lucy’s Freshman Inquiry course. Grace is a Women and Gender Studies graduate and is now working for a non-profit called Toolkit Project PDX publishing teen activists, working in freelance design, and working with plants.